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Monthly Archives: May 2007

What a long couple weeks.  I think I have had writers mind boggle.  Not exactly writers block, because I have lots of stuff to write about….it’s just my mind has been so over loaded as of late that my thoughts all just seem to get boggled up before I can transfer them to paper.

 

Random thoughts……

 

Mind Boggle……

 

The loss of the baby was a huge shock……but we will get thru it…..time heals all wounds.

 

Receiving a double work load at work has proven to taken most of my strength most days…..

 

The kids are growing and changing……

 

Sierah will leave for IU Bloomington in a month……prom is tomorrow…….$$$…..

 

I passed my training class in Chicago and I am now the only person in my agency with this tax credit training certification.  (Everyone else who has taken it has failed.)…….phew, I’m so glad I passed…..

 

It is time for Winston to find a new home…….I will miss him deeply……

 

My lawn mower is finally working…….but no one ever seems to be behind me except ME!

 

I need a load of mulch…….

 

I wish I had a garage…….I wonder if my little jeep would fit inside one of those big sheds…..hum……

 

Hot flashes and menopause suck……

 

My camera is broken……that really sucks…….

 

I want to go back to Chicago soon…….

 

I love Chicago……

 

Ah……Chicago…….Greg……Ahhhhh…….*smile

 

Jenna asked me this week………”Mom, why are boys so hard to understand?………I said….”Mommy doesn’t know…..she still doesn’t understand them….”

 

I wish so many College kids didn’t live all around me…….they party too much…..I am going to fill up water balloons to throw on the next frat boy who pisses on my tree right outside my window…….

 

I like sleeping with someone better than alone……..I may have a new roommate soon….

 

I hope my BLOG friend Diane is doing better…….

 

I love my screened in front porch and ceiling fan……..a glass of wine, my feet kicked up…….a candle burning……ahh…..

 

It’s Mother’s Day in a few days…….I miss my Mom desperately…….I want to relax on Mother’s Day and nothing else……

 

Happy Mother’s Day to all of my friends……

 

Its time to go home……..thank goodness! ……TGIF……….

 Laura

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I just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and prayers.  I appreciate all of them. Acacia was in the hospital again last night ~ all night with some complications due to the miscarriage but I think all is well now.  She goes to the OBGYN this afternoon and will return every two days to the hospital for blood tests checking her hormone level until it drops to the correct level. 

 

I have struggled thru a couple difficult weeks but I know there is light at the end of the tunnel.  We will get thru this…..God makes no mistakes……it just wasn’t this little ones time yet.

 

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The day after we found out the news about the baby I had to attend a training class in Chicago.  Chicago is only about 3 hours from my house but I have not been there in years.  I was thrilled I was going, but the timing couldn’t of been worse.

 

My friend who went to training with me assumed I wouldn’t go after everything that happened the night prior with Acacia, but I almost had to.  My boss was originally supposed to go and had something come up, so he sent me in his place.  I felt honored he asked me to fill in for him and it was training that is extremely valuable to me.

 

I left my leaving town up to Acacia.  I asked her if she would be okay for 4 days while I was away or did she need for me to stay…….she said she would be okay and we would talk on the phone every day……so reluctantly, I went….. I drove 3 hours to Chicago later that day with her and my Grandbaby on my mind.

 

Chicago.

 

Chicago is an amazing city.  It has a huge appeal to me……I wouldn’t want to live there but it is fascinating to visit.

 

I was almost surprised that my employer put us up in such a beautiful hotel just on the outskirts of downtown in whats called the medical district.  The best thing for us turned out to be the shuttle service offered by the hotel to provide us with a pick of and drop off service anywhere we wanted to go in a certain radius from the hotel.  

 

The weather sucked~ It was cold and rainy….. as a matter of fact a tornado passed thru so we spent lots of time inside the hotel and various restaurants when we weren’t in class.  (Not my plan, I wanted to ride the train to the Navy Pier, go to the Shed Aquarium, etc……) 

 

I was lucky that my friend Greg……someone who is… well….more than a friend now and very special to me, I have know known forever and we have been spending lots and lots of time together after re-finding each other after many years……is from Chicago so he decided to join me in Chicago and visit with his family while I was in class.  My evenings were filled with him, this fabulous hotel, room service, the hotel room window open……the sounds of Chicago and rain on the window all night long.  It was almost intoxicating.  I didn’t want to return home. 

 

I needed a break from life….my kids, the dogs, my job……everything.  Chicago was a wonderful break for me………I needed that.  A huge part of me wished I could have taken Acacia…..my mind never left her though…..wondering at night if she had laid in bed and cried as I had…..

 

Last night while Acacia lay in the hospital bed attached to an IV…. drifting in and out of sleep I studied the map of downtown Chicago and all of the things I want to do the next time I go back.  What train I would ride to get where and where exactly I would go, etc.

 

I realized I need to slow down…life is too short…take breaks more often…….do something for myself periodically……

 

I need that….I deserve that……I need to do something for ME every once in a while….

 

Like take a mini vacation to Chicago……

 Laura